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the green monster stalks me from the shadows boiling with rage, waiting for the opportune moment to pounce. at my breaking point but no i can hold it back. i surround myself with people praying they dont see the green creeping in from the edges suffocating me until im gone consumed by the green  

I look up and there you are. Staring down at me, impossible to read. Entwined together Twilight calling to the night Your lips dance across my skin The softest silk leaving goosebumps in your wake I mold into you, while the fire within blazes. So close to exploding trying to hold back And just like that You're gone

I'm drifting away into the shadow place of grey, floating down and letting go. Who wants to fallow me as I sail on home? Scared of leaving behind everything worth staying for. But looking forward to what is coming this way. Close your eyes take a breath then let it out. What did that leave? The shadows are comfort taking me to a place to feel once again. I may not be whole, I know I'm far from perfect. The shadows accept me. Make me one of them. Grey uniforms us, conforms us, encircles us. The bleak, staleness, of the fog. It's all the same. To give into the grey, to give into the shadows. Fall into the shadows, forever in

am i stupid for loving you?    for putting up with all the arguing,    for each time i made sure your drunk ass got home safe. am i stupid for staying with you?    no matter how many times you hurt me,    no matter how many times i have cried for you am i stupid for still being with you?    for thinking things will be better,    for hoping you will see i'm only trying to help you,    for believing that one day you will be the person i fell in love with in the beginning. am i stupid for everything?    for the things i have said in anger,    for the times i have left without the promise of talking to you when i came back.

I don't even know how to begin this. I feel so full of happiness but empty at the same time. God has given me so much in my life and most if the time i forget to even say thanks for being alive today. Everyday holds something new and it never fails to impact me in some way. No matter how small that something is. As i sit in the quiet of my car driving to work i wonder what i could have done to make someone feel better. I think about the people i've met. The things i've done and what i still want to do. But most of all how i feel about the things i did that day. Did i live today to the fullest? Did everything turn out ok? How can what i have d

What do I have to do to be happy Im tired of the Fights The arguments And disagreements I cant understand why You don't trust me Even though you say you do Going through my Things and my Messages That's not trust I cant be happy when I have to do everything for you Or to you Or with you You say that I don't show you Affection You say we argue about Everything You blame everything on Me My attitude My anger My life The way I was brought up But most of all You blame Me Ya I get mad Ya I get frustrated But it cant be just me It takes two I cant be happy when you Blame me For things I cant control For

I feel so safe So secure wrapped in Your arms, As I fall to sleep You gently kiss my hair My forehead My cheek You wrap your arms around me, Sleeping next to you Dreaming sweetly, I wake up Smile on my face Still wrapped in your arms, My sweet dreaming Is exactly how we are sleeping, As I lay Before the sun rises Wrapped in your arms, I pray you never let Go.

i want      your arms around me,      and my head resting on your chest.      to hear your every heart beat,      and each little laugh.      to see you smile in the morning,      and dance through the night.      to feel you near me,      and whisper in my ear.      to say i love you,      and know what i feel is real.      to wake up next to you,      and kiss your cheek.      to never leave your side,      and to say you will always be mine.